I learned last Wednesday that I was most likely miscarrying this baby. I continued to suffer all week because there was a glimmer of hope with my HCG levels rising, only to find tonight at the ER that they have dropped to the nearly non-pregnant level. The man doing the ultrasound didn't even have to speak- his face went white. I have never hurt this badly emotionally in my life- and I've been through some pretty rough times. How do people even get over something like this? How do they go on to live normal lives, and go see movies and eat ice-cream and go shopping, and laugh? Other than something happening to my living children, I can't imagine a pain worse than this. I don't know how to manage such agonizing, hurtful, desperate emotions. I feel like I am in hell.